New Beginnings Support Group

~~~The beginning is always today ~~~

Support Group Meeting

On Thursday Paul went with me to the support group.  I've only been to three but each one had about 45-60 minutes of everyone in the group sharing about themselves.  Where they were in their progress, problems, successes, etc.   This time there were so many new people, at least half the group.  When the speaker got done two people got up and left and then the rest began to follow pace.  I was so disappointed, I'd really looked forward to this part of the meeting I always feel so inspired and find I can get answers to questions I have. 

We stayed anyway and visited with other couples, some who were just beginning the process, some who had surgery dates scheduled like me and otheres that had already been through the process of Weight Loss Surgery.  This helps because Paul can voice questions to someone who has been in the spot he's soon to be in.  And, you look at things differently when you're the one giving support and care and when you're the one actually going through the process.  Things he has concerns about I hadn't even thought about.  So all in all, even though it was like previous meetings, it was well worth going to.

Yesterday's roller coaster  

Yesterday was probably my worst day since I've started on the liquid diet.  I felt like a slug, couldn't get motivated and just didn't feel good most of the day.  I took a nap during the day, something I rarely did and went to bed early.  Today was so much better, I've accomplished a few things and don't have the hunger pangs I  had yesterday.  I think that yesterday was the first time in this process since I've thought about food, you know the demons in the brain painting little pictures of food and encouraging you to eat. Somehow they've been pretty quiet this last week and I'm not sure what brought them alive today. At least it was short lived because today has seemed to be back on track.

Drum Roll please..................... 

the good news is I'm down 12 pounds, wow unreal.  You go day by day for what seems eons having this pleading little conversation with yourself at night when you go to bed that tomorrow you're going to do better, stay on track and not eat.  Morning rolls around and the cycle begins.  At least that was the past scenario, now it's different I've turned that bend and somehow it's all clicked inside, I know this is the path I'm suppose to be on and the way I'm suppose to proceed so cheating or eating something isn't even in my brain waves.  I like it this way, I like this new strength.  I'm on my way!